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she put so much time
and heart into you. you
were the only thing that
she talked about and the
only person that she wanted
to spend the rest of her life
with. i don't think she ever
quite got over you. when
ever someone would
mention your name her
eyes would light up. she cared
for you more than any
other girl you were chasing
around. why'd you have to leave
her?
The biggest mistake you can make is
drifting away from someone who you
once had the time of your life with.
^please?
Don't call me afraid. I already know I am. You know how it is, to be paranoid. To feel as though you know something's wrong with you. You want to know if there is, but you're too scared. Don't tell me you haven't been there. Don't tell me you don't worry. And don't fucking tell me it's just a phase.
no matter what happens
between us; i just want to
let you know that i'll always
have a piece of you in my heart.
i'll care about you and want
the best for you. you deserve more than
the world would ever be able
to give you; but i hope that you get
what you've wanted all of these
years. no matter what happens between
us; i'll always love you.
you told me so many times that you weren't like the rest.
you were different and you would only be good to me.
i believe you, for some odd reason. maybe it was the way
you smile when you looked at me. or the way your eyes would
light up when you laughed. but whatever it was, i hate
it! because now that you've done me wrong i've realized that i
never should've believed you in the first place.
i'm just so upset and empty.
and do you wanna know what
sucks? he's the one that makes
me feel better when i'm like this.
but he's not here this time. and that
just kills me.
Courage is fear that said it's prayers.
sorry for so many updates and depressing ones, but jake left me. these keep my mind off of it ...sometimes. he said he needed time to think because he talked to chelsey one night. i can't believe i let him in, i let him take my heart, and i let him convince me he loved me..
I have been stung by a bee within the last week.
I hate the color orange.
I usually shower in the evenings.
My first name starts with an R.
I've tried numerous diets.
I think diets are pointless. I'd rather eat healthy.
I have more than one best friend.
I am petite.
I feel guilty after chowing down on a bunch of cookies. I don't want to get fat.
Llamas are cool.
I exercise regularly.
I love Rascal Flatts passionately.
I haven't been to the movies for months.
I know for sure what college I want to go to.
I'm not very open about who I have crushes on.
I am an extreme worry wart.
My friends are the BEST.
Fall is the best season.
I used to be obsessed with Pokemon.
I like to look back at pictures of me when I was little.
I live in an apartment.
I hardly ever study for tests at school, but I still manage to do well.
I rather enjoy scrapbooking.
I've googled my name before, just to see what came up.
I wish I knew how to analyze my dreams.
I try to be energy efficent.
I ask questions during movies.
I've been to at least half the states in the United States.
I've never left this continent.
I still sleep with a stuffed animal.
I make my own clothes.
I have blonde hair and blue eyes.
I've entered a spelling bee.
People often get the wrong first impression of me.
Bad grammar drives me crazy.
I own clothes from Target or WalMart.
When I was little I got in trouble a lot.
I'd rather go camping then stay in a hotel.
My favorite pizza is plain cheese.
People label me as "emo".
I have to be right all the time.
Just because you're right doesn't mean you have always have to point it out.
I have eaten a crayon before.
I drink a LOT of soda.
I watch at least one soap opera obsessively.
I read tabloids.
There is something yellow within two feet of me.
I am home alone.
I'm listening to music right now.
I wish I were a little shorter sometimes.
People tell me I am photogenic.
There are too many typeo's when I'm on the keyboard.
Starbucks is evil.
One situp will make me explode.
Reality tv shows must die.
I have used my hairbrush as a microphone before.
I have played DDR before.
I have iTunes on my computer.
I download my music illegally.
I have a fear of public restrooms.
I visit the library regularly.
I wear my sunglasses indoors.
I was born in the 80's!!
I'm a 90's child.
Batman is my favorite superhero of all time.
Someone has read my diary before without my consent.
I think I am intelligent.
I can spell very well.
I have big feet.
I'm tall /short for my age.
John Lennon is my favorite Beatle.
I like bandaids with cartoon characters on them, they're way better than the generic ones.
My middle name sounds common, but its spelled really weird.
I zone out during my classes really easily.
I watch Saturday Night Live every Saturday night.
I adore All Time Low.
I've been to icanhascheezburger.com
I'm the only person in my family with my hair color.
Wasps scare me to death.
I'm really jumpy.
My parents and I are nothing alike.
I read all the time.
I'm on a diet right now.
I'm on MSN messenger right now.
I make new friends really easily.
I dread going to school, but I dread coming home too.
I don't talk to my best friend from middle school anymore.
I have a mental illness.
..I should take meds for it but I don't.
My parents forced me to go see a therapist once.
I'm the only girl in my family.
I have some cd's within a five foot radius of me right now.
I've gone to DisneyWorld in the past year.
I'm in the schools band, but I'm not a band nerd.
..I actually wanna quit.
Ha, I would never be in the band even if you paid me!
I have tons of pets.
My favorite month is August.
I've never gone camping before.
I don't like numbered surveys.
I have the weirdest thought process EVER!
I was so happy theres another season of A Shot At Love.
But I don't like the people on the show this season.
I want to see Bo and Jay get in a fight.
I think Degrassi has just gotten worse over the years.
Everyone hates my math teacher.
I don't listen to the radio.
I have my moms eyes.
There is a fish tank somewhere in my house. | | |
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I gave my everything for you. I let down everything and tried for you. I gave all my heart to try to make "us" work. You threw it away. You aren't sure if you want to "fall in love completely", when just yesterday you said you were completely in love with me. You can't still love me if you're unsure I'm the girl you want to fall in love with. You did want to hurt me. You talked to her one night, and you know she's only lonely and wants somebody, and you throw me away.
You want to "play the field" a little? Go for it. I wont be here "later" when you get back and realize I was the best thing you could've had.
^basic rambling that was needed. you can take it, i dont care.
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."
Karen - age 7
   
but love, i've come to understand, is more
than three words mumbled before bedtime.
   
love is a reason for living,
a reason for trying,
and a reason for life.
   
liars can't be lovers.
   
Promise you won't lie?
no.
Have you kissed anyone in the past 10 days?
no.
Last person you shared food with?
i dont know.
Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
angry/sad.
Has there been anyone particular on your mind at all today?
yes.
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
gym shorts.
Do you love the last person that called you today?
no one called me today.
Could you date someone taller than you?
yeah.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yes. :/
Do you need to say anything to someone?
i want to say a lot but i can't.
Honestly, does your crush/boyfriend/girlfriend like you back?
apparently he wants me back. but i know chelsey is doing something to fuck him up.
he really hurt me last night..
Do you think before you speak?
i try too.
What’s the last thing that made you sad?
jake.
Do you wear glasses?
yes.
Did you see the person you liked today?
no.
Ever kissed under water?
no.
What color shirt are you wearing?
white.
Do you straighten your hair often?
yes.
Who was the last person you saw in person?
my mom.
How are you feeling?
shitty.
Is there something you're not looking forward to?
tomorrow.
Do you think boys truly understand girls?
i just don't think people understand each other in general.
What is one word you seem to always misspell that you know you shouldn't?
deffinitely.
Choose: bonfire on a beach or clubbing in the city?
bonfire on a beach.
Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
kind of.
Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it?
nope.
Are you usually wide awake in the morning?
no.
What was the last movie you watched?
curious case of benjamin button.
Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
sure.
Ever been lied to by someone you thought would never lie to you?
yeah.
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
jake.
Last person you told a secret to?
jake.
Do you like hugs and kisses?
yes.
When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
two days ago. | | |
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let the lights from the city
shine down on us
like diamonds
the dotted lines show us where we're supposed to go, we stay inside them in fear that we'll lose control.
the night falls and the lights they provoke a thought of you.
   
It happens fast for some people and slow for others. Accidents or gravity, we all end up mutilated
   
Buy me a ring that will turn my finger green
so I can imagine our love is a forest and I can get lost in you
and I swear I grew like a wildflower those years I was with you
i hope someday you’ll find all my quotes,
all my words, and read them all.i hope you’ll
know that they’re about you, and when you
read them, i hope that at least a single tear
will run down your pretty face.
   
They read you Cinderella--
You hoped it would come true;
That one day prince charming
would come & rescue you.
You like romantic movies
And you never will forget
The way you felt when
Romeo kissed his Juliet.
Your heart was dying fast, and you didn't know what to do.
   
when they kiss they're no longer friends &
not yet lover's, they're something in between
Has anyone ever cheated on their boyfriend/girlfriend with you?
no.
Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
i basically have one.
Who are the past 5 people to send you a text?
juliana, rosie, jake, herbie.
Do you live alone?
no.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
yes.
Do you love where you live?
its okay.
What were you doing 12 AM last night?
i don't remember.
What can always put you in a good mood?
//fun.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
no.
When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?
i don't remember.
Who was the last person to make you cry?
myself/emily.
Do you like someone a lot?
yes.
What would make you happy right now?
jake.
What are your plans for Thursday?
nothing so far.
What are you wearing?
boxers and a shirt.
Where are you right now?
home.
Have you had your birthday yet this year?
no.
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
this.
Whats you're favorite thing to do on the weekend?
have fun.
How do you feel about your siblings?
i love him.
When did you last eat chinese food?
like.. a month ago.
Have you ever kissed someone that was high?
no.
Do you take compliments well?
no.
Do you think you've changed over the past year?
yes.
Are you playing hard to get right now?
no.
Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
yes.
Does it make you mad when people stare at you?
no.
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
probably.
Where is your number one person on your friends list?
her house, or michelles.
Have you kissed someone in the past month?
no.
Who's the last person you held hands with?
bethany.
When it comes to you and your best friend, does the phrase "opposites attract" apply?
in a way.
Have you ever disliked someone without any valid reason?
no.
Do you know someone who falls for people too easily?
yes.
Do you remember the date of your first ever real kiss?
define "real," because my definition is probably different from yours.
Have you ever been directly mean to someone's face?
yes.
What's one thing that's really annoying about your school?
the fucking black girls. im sorry if that sounds racist, but all the black girls gather around the hallway where half of my classes are and it takes seriously 3 minutes just to get past them.
Do you like someone?
yes.
Is there anything you would like to tell someone?
yes.
How many different people of the opposite sex have you really cried over?
two.
Is anyone on your bad side right now?
not really.
Do you think someone's thinking of you right now?
yes.
Do you hate the last person you were talking with?
no.
You're thinking about someone, aren't you?
always am.
If the person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
horrible.
Are you wasting your time on someone?
who knows.
Do you trust most people?
yes. | | |
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It's agony; complete, excruciating agony. It's like your heart has been ripped out of your chest and stomped on, and you can't breathe... you don't want to eat... you can't function. It's the most intense pain that you'll ever feel, and the worst part is, there's no way to relieve it. It's unyielding, merciless torture.
    
   
You know when you’re sitting on a chair and you lean back so you’re just on two legs then you lean too far and you almost fall over but at the last second you catch yourself? I feel like that all the time.
 
 
You know the place between sleep and awake? Where you still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, where I'll always be waiting.
   
I should never be left alone with my mind for too long.
You know, you can’t swim in a town this shallow.
Do you know anyone named Austin?
yeah.
When was the last time you held hands with someone?
it's been awhile.
Who sent you your last message?
i dont know.
Who was the last person to make you laugh?
jake.
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
no.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
my dad.
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
both are good.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
yes.
Where are your siblings?
i have no idea, actually.
Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from?
chloe, rosie, emily and jake.
How many pillows do you sleep with?
one.
Honestly, when was the last time anyone saw you in your underwear?
no idea.
Last person you talked to on the phone?
my mom.
Kiss anyone in the last week?
no.
Anything exciting happen lately?
went to DC?
Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy?
i don't know, probably tommy.
Has someone disappointed you recently?
no.
Do you get along with your friends' boyfriends/girlfriends?
not all of them.
Do you know anyone who is having a baby?
yeah.
Have you ever been called heartless?
no.
Looking back, did you ever think you'd be where you're at in life now?
absolutely not.
What was the last thing you cried about?
i was laughing too hard.
What are the last spoken words you heard?
no idea.
How many months are there until your birthday?
like 7.
Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate.
When was the last time you had Starbucks?
josiah bought some thursday and i took a sip.
How many letters are in your last name?
ten.
Have you lost friends in the past year?
yes.
Who did you last text?
rosie.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
i dont know.
Last November, who were you in a relationship with?
jake.
Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
no.
What was your last phone call about?
i told my mom we were home and to come pick me up.
Do you miss anybody?
basically.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
probably.
Do you think you are an argumentative person?
i can be, depends on what mood i'm in.
How are you feeling right now?
i'm feeling good.
Last time you laughed?
earlier.
Last nap?
i took like 2 minute ones on the bus earlier.
What did you do on Saturday?
today is saturday, and i was lazy cause im so tired from the bus ride from DC.
Excited about anything?
obivously.
Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
yeah, but not like 4 day anniversaries.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i hope.
Are you someone who worries too often?
definitely.
How has the week been?
it sucked, until thursday.
Have you ever dyed your hair?
yeah.
Have you ever been in a play?
yeah.
Do you have a bad temper?
i can.
Have you ever spent the night in the hospital?
yeah.
Want to get something off your chest?
no.
Anything good happening tomorrow?
probably not.
Are you saving up money for anything in particular?
not really.
Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
eh kind of.
Is there someone you want to talk to right now?
im talking to him now. <3
Does the person you like know that you like them?
yeah.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
walmart?
Were you happy when you woke up today?
i never really went to sleep.
Last thing you ate?
combos.
Last thing you drank?
water.
Doing anything special tonight?
sleep. | | |
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